Hi loves,
It seems unreal to be writing yet another entry involving the passing of a family member when I just went through this and have yet to process the first death fully. You see, yesterday while dealing with some of the final details of my grandma's passing on July 5th (ie: estate and will etc) we received a phone call that Buddy had passed away; 3 weeks to the very day of my grandma's passing. I have no words to describe what it feels like to be grieving and be dealt more grief even though I have been put through it now numerous times in the last year. Perhaps, I am simply becoming an expert with the grieving process or I am merely numb awaiting the eventual breakdown.
Anyway, I wish I had more uplifting news for everyone and maybe I will later on, but for right now this is what my REAL life is. I wish it was not, but hey that's life right? I want you all to know the only reason why I have always even before becoming a CV been so transparent about my life is because I do not believe in hiding parts of myself. If you are going to know me you will know both my triumphs and failures, my blessings and my pains. To me, friendship even if you are miles away from me means you get to see the reality of a person's life and soul... not just the fake ass mask many people like to wear for others to accept them. So, although I am deeply regretful to share tragic news so often if you are to be in my life as a real friend you will have to accept the beauty that comes from the chaotic storms within my life. If you cannot accept this... I understand and wish you well.
Either way, I want you all to know that due to how unexpected this death was for me I ended up taking the night off last night and most of today off to just get my head clear as well as spend time with my boyfriend. Thus, if you sent me a message of some sort and I have yet to respond I will be getting to my messages later on this evening. Please note, if you sent an email, skype message, or any other form of message to me I will also be getting to those later on tonight so do not fret.
I hope you all are well and please have a safe week.
Love,
Star
It seems unreal to be writing yet another entry involving the passing of a family member when I just went through this and have yet to process the first death fully. You see, yesterday while dealing with some of the final details of my grandma's passing on July 5th (ie: estate and will etc) we received a phone call that Buddy had passed away; 3 weeks to the very day of my grandma's passing. I have no words to describe what it feels like to be grieving and be dealt more grief even though I have been put through it now numerous times in the last year. Perhaps, I am simply becoming an expert with the grieving process or I am merely numb awaiting the eventual breakdown.
Anyway, I wish I had more uplifting news for everyone and maybe I will later on, but for right now this is what my REAL life is. I wish it was not, but hey that's life right? I want you all to know the only reason why I have always even before becoming a CV been so transparent about my life is because I do not believe in hiding parts of myself. If you are going to know me you will know both my triumphs and failures, my blessings and my pains. To me, friendship even if you are miles away from me means you get to see the reality of a person's life and soul... not just the fake ass mask many people like to wear for others to accept them. So, although I am deeply regretful to share tragic news so often if you are to be in my life as a real friend you will have to accept the beauty that comes from the chaotic storms within my life. If you cannot accept this... I understand and wish you well.
Either way, I want you all to know that due to how unexpected this death was for me I ended up taking the night off last night and most of today off to just get my head clear as well as spend time with my boyfriend. Thus, if you sent me a message of some sort and I have yet to respond I will be getting to my messages later on this evening. Please note, if you sent an email, skype message, or any other form of message to me I will also be getting to those later on tonight so do not fret.
I hope you all are well and please have a safe week.
Love,
Star
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